Dear 2018,
Thank you for being another year of growth. It was a great year filled with good times, happiness, and laughter. I welcomed you in differently this year, celebrating and supporting my linesister at her wedding, toasting my close linesisters at the stroke of midnight with a glass of champagne. Those relationships flourished all year and are stronger than ever.
Thank you for giving me the time to discover who I am and the women I am becoming. I used this year to continue to develop myself and learn my needs and wants. I used this time to date and discover what I like, what I don’t like, and what I will and will not tolerate from a man.
A few days before bringing you in, I sat down on my couch and wrote out all of my goals in a tangible way on my vision board. I placed my vision board in my meditation space, so I was constantly reminded of my goals. This year I was able to achieve most of those goals. I cooked more, I drank 64 oz. of water most days, I workout out at least twice a week, I mediated, I said my daily affirmations, I got into grad school, I strengthened my spiritual connections, I strengthened relationships, I achieved a lot.
But 2018, you were also a hard year.
You showed me how resilient I am. I still had my bouts of depression, but I got through them and remembered how strong I am. And now I celebrate my joy everyday. I struggled at times with my anxiety, but I managed to pull “tools out of my tool box” to ease the anxiety. I wasn’t making good decisions when it came to how I handled my emotions. I realized that I needed to be easier on myself, treat myself better, and work hard to overcome my battles, or next time there may not be a next time. That was one of the biggest lessons that I don’t talk about but learned the most from! I lost a friendship. But now I cherish the ones I have, and I learned that people will step up and show up in different ways and when they tell you who they are, believe them.
2018, I don’t regret anything that you brought. You were a good year. I learned, I overcame, and most importantly, I lived!
I brought you in celebrating and I will bring 2019 in the same way!
Sincerely,
Ray
Learning as I Grow 